.period.

i just remembered a quote from HOUSE (thx to nick...i love HOUSE): "he cured you. you didnt cure him." the same goes to me. a friend of mine called me last night and told me how i helped him a lot. i inspired him. i cant deny that it felt so damn good knowing that you mean something to other people. but the feeling lasted for only a milisecond before i found myself crying. i prolly cured him or other people around me but they didnt cure me. no, im not trying to blame them cause curing isnt something you can do on purpose. it happens naturally, unintendedly. just like any other masterpieces of nature.

have you ever felt so damn low? feels like giving up; feels like surrender to no one but yourself. i know that im unwell. not a bit. a whole lot. my life curve is going on a one-way street called DOWN. nothing seems to cheer me up. i used to be thankful for a rose amongst so many thorns. i saw glass as half full. i waited for a beautiful rainbow after the rain. now? huh...everything is the other way around. i curse thorns for keeping one rose apart from the others. dont you realise that a rose is always alone and lonely? i guess thats because of its thorns. i see glass as half empty. i close my window and sleep when it rains. no more waiting for what comes after.

i dont know when will it be over. the misery. the pain. the curse. i wish i could just put a period after a long bitter sad sentence, but unfortunately life forces me to put coma, semicolon, and anything else but period instead. i dont have the courage to fight against life. but i do hope i have the courage to say "hey life...watch me!!! today i fail but ill try again tomorrow..."