.remember me.

i used to think my relationship ends because of me. because of my mistakes. my egos. my i-love-you-too-much kind of love. so, i cried. hours. days. months. yesterday it hit me. no, it aint bout me. its about you being untrue. you cheated on me. you gave me millions reasons, but none of them was about you.

hey liar, you fooled me. it doesnt matter how many times you did. all that matters now is that i know that i shouldnt cry. you dont deserve my tear. my time. especially my love.

hey liar, shame on you. you dont now me. i thought you are one in a million kinda guy, but well, i can have another bastard within a minute. theres plenty of you out there. i want none.

hey liar, why didnt you just say it to my face? at least you had my respect. oops, my bad. i forget that you are just a coward. you just cant decide things.

hey liar, i choose to do nothing about it but remember...its your loss. i wish you get someone who deserve a guy like you. go find yourself a girl like you: liar. its time for me to mend my broken heart. and i guess its time for you to be aware. what goes around comes around. when that day comes, whenever it is...i could only pray that youd remember me.

.just love.

i take a look around. i see couples. i stop for a while. get to know them. how they can work things out between them. surprisingly i find out that most of them doesnt love each other the way lovers should. they hold on to the status of being in a relationship JUST BECAUSE theyre just too afraid to be single. to be alone. ironically, most of the loneliest people are in a relationship. they use each other company JUST BECAUSE two people look nicer than one. its all a mask. covered up with lies, betrayal, and lust.

relationship shouldnt be about sex. it shouldnt be about the kisses, the hugs, and the pride of getting a pretty woman or a handsome man. it shouldnt be about what looks good. relationship should be about love. real love. about picturing yourself 40 or 50 years from now when youre on your deathbed. will that person still be there? can that person raise your children? it should be about someone who can hold your hand when life throws you upside down. someone who can slap you in the face when youre outta line. someone who can challenge your dream. someone who can give you pat in the back.

i used to envy the couples. now that i know the truth, i envy them no more. i am currently happily married. married to my hope and dreams. those are the things i just couldnt live without. i hope that someday ill find that someone. but hey, i dont know have i met him or not (quoting from a friend =]). i just wanna be in a real relationship. with no lies. no betrayal. just love. is that too much to ask?